mom, this one's for you.

well today is mother's day. i called my mom early today to find out what she was doing.

i just got off work, she said, sounding like a woman who had just pulled an overnight double shift. and now i'm taking myself out to blueberry pancakes at denny's. they use fresh blueberries.

despite my often cold-sounding heart, it's moments like these that i wish i could just drive over and say "we're not going to denny's. we're going out to brunch on park ave and we're drinking mimosas until we're so tired that we need coffee coolers. then we'll walk it all off by going shopping."

my mom and i have had a relationship that could fill volumes. from the early days of us doing everything together because i was her viola-playing "perfect" daughter, to the years when she took off in search of something more than my father (and the rest of us got stuck in the crosshairs), to the point where we are now: almost daily phone calls filled with laughter, head-shaking and inane details about her dogs. i realize how far we've come and i know she does too. so it's times like today when i want to hug her and take in all of her crazy stories, all of her judgements of others, all of her insecurities and everything else she is that has helped shaped me.

i love you mom. and because i have no intention of you ever reading this blog, i also sent you a card and posted a note on Facebook  -- you know, the place where you tagged yourself as MOM in all of the pictures.

happy mother's day.